"I know we don't talk anymore and there has even been times I've noticed we've walked right by each other without saying a word. There are those times, however, when we see each other... make eye contact... and I know, no matter how hard we both try and hide it... that you miss me just as much as I miss you"-UnknownYou may think a real friend is someone who is loyal to you someone that you shared your secrets with someone who you trust. But are you really sure that person is the friend you think is what you can call "best friend"
In my case I thought my bestfriend or what I used to call sister was everything I ever dreamed off having by my side.I thought she was more then what she turned out to be.
People don't just say things in accident ,especially something that can make you feel humiliated.In some cases people get all tied up in their on little lies wich makes things even worse.What is more important a friend that could be with you forever or the dream guy you think was going to be forever your true love?.I know it was something that I never expected for it to come ,I never thought it was even possible, but as I thought more about it and really put attention to it I noticed it!I never thought what I used to call bestfriend choose her boyfriend over me.
Its sad to know the reality of something you wish had never happend.Especially when you once helped that person thru those dificult moments in their lifes.This did not only lead to a backstabbing issue, it led to not having that trust anymore.
Honestly I really miss those times we use to spend together,the times we use to go out,but I know for a fact that those fun times are in the past,and they will always be great memories to me forever.The harder part is I can't imagine ourselfs to be how we used to,the bff's that once exsisted.The way I visualise it is just as we act now.We have created this akwardness hatefull enviroment between each other and it is just really weird,it's so hard to even say hi.
I know she knows half of my secrets and I know half of hers,I know I don't plan to open my mouth to everybody and expose these secrets.I know it could be karma to her,but I don't plan to do that.I am better then that the past is in the past,you can forgive but not forget.A second chance or a sorry may be a right way to forgive someone,but how would I know if it's fake and something similar could strike again.
Nobody can tell you what to do in such case,you have to decide for yourself.In a case like mine friends usually break all relations with each other and become strangers.
When I think about this it kills me inside to know it was real,i can still remeber that one day,that it was never a dream.Sometimes it is better to cover those feelings with a fake smile.
If one of these days she happens to be in danger,ill pretend to be superman and go where she is to save her.
Since so much has happend with all this I realized things in life, how life really is,you may think everything is going perfect in your own little world and just by an instant your life could change completly.Now I know for sure my real best friends are those who have been with me throught all that has happend,and didn't step away from me.I am not the same as I was before,I learned alot out of this.I am not going to deny my frienship to nobody,im just going to be aware of people this time because I personaly don't want to repeat the same story again.
