Bullying is a form of abuse towards others.It's a way to hurt intentionally another person.It can occur in any context in which human beings interact with each other.Bullying can be expressed in many ways not only physically but verbally.Those who are a victim of bullying show effects that can be serious and even fatal.Many struggle with a case of bullying everyday.Those who are bullied at school are likely to build up fear of going or dropping out.I have seen many situations were people end up mentally damaged due to a bully's abuse.Bullying is something someone should never go thru any time in their lifes. Have I ever been a vicitm of bullying?Yes,though I never reported it because I didn't know it was called "bullying".It started back in the 8th grade,one of my classmates(can't say his name i'll call him Billy)decided to start calling me "Shrek".I remeber it was in my 5th period class,everyone in that class started laughing.It made me feel self uncontious,I asumed he called me that because I was not very small in other words thin.As self uncontious as it made me feel I joined the laughing party with everyone else.The teacher said to everyone to stop the laughter.
The next day as I was walking to 1st period Billy said "Hey Shrek where's Fiona"?I looked at him like Huh? he said "yeah where's(Fiona was given to one of my best guy friends who im going to call Sam)Sam"?I was like you really need to stop that,he said it was simply just a joke to not take it serious.Throught the day all the guys in my 5th period decided to start calling me "Shrek"without permission.Everytime I heard someone say it,I got very mad inside and thought they began to call me that due to my body image.Even if they called one of my friends Fiona I honestly preffered people calling me Fiona instead of Sam.The sadest part was, Sam is a guy so why was he Fiona and not me?,I always thought the reason he was being called Fiona was because many classmates thought he had more of a "feminine side" and not "The tough Guy".
Ever since the day they began to call me by shrek,I began to dislike school especially my 5th period.Rather then telling my mom about this I sucked it up and pretended like nothing was wrong,like if school was going just fine.I would always look towards the weekend because I knew nobody would call me names and I could escape from all of this for atleast 2days.After the weekends where over,I knew to expect the name calling first thing in the morning.I alway's walked to school,since it wasn't far from my house.Billy would alway's get dropped off one block away from school,I knew then if he began to call me name's I would simply avoid him talking and speed walk my way to school.
Their were times he would catch up to me,he would say "Heeeeeey Shrek why you walking so fast is Fiona waiting for Shrek"!his comment's always made me angry.As angry as I would get I knew if I defended myself and said something back he would keep adding more and more things that would hurt me.Throught the day I would be aware of Billy ,if I saw him I would be terrified,if he talked to me I knew I had to be nice,if he was around his friends I knew to pretend to not see him.It was like he was controlling my school life in a way,when I was around him I knew not to say anything because to him it would always be something stupid.I really dislkied this torture so much that I knew it was never going to stop.
Towards the end of the year I remember I was more then exstatic!,not only because the year after I was going to start freshman year in a brand new high school,but because I knew I was not going to see Billy no more.A full year of tortureness would finally come to an end it was like a dream come true to me.Its been almost 3years since this happened,I am realizing alot from the past.I ask myself What did i do to deserve all this?I was never mean to Billy making friendswas something i was good at,I always opened the door to my friendship never do I remember closing the door on someone.So why was I targeted?I could never find an answer,instead I find theories to my questions.
I compared shrek to the way i looked in the 8th grade, and saw the physical image was the only thing.Was I Billy's target because of my weight?They say the truth always hurts,words can hurt two times worser than physical abuse.Some ones words hurt me so much,not only in the past but also today.Its something that cannot be forgotten it permanently stays within you.This has affected me in so much,I know im going to find a way out I need patience because it's not going to change from one day to another it takes time.If your a victim speak out loud don't keep everything inside,their is people out their who will help you with your situation.
Don't make the mistake I did,I kept everything bottled up I could of done something.Though the fear stopped me from talking.Bullying should not even have excistense,no one wants to be hurt intentionatly. Everyone has done it once in their lifetime.We humans have the power to stop it because if we can't then who will?it's a choice every human should make simply think before you speak and say no to bullying!
